ISH_.

2009-11-19T17:31:00.001+08:00

i'm alive and kicking.
the only thing that is dead is the net at home.
:(

2009-11-02T00:07:00.003+08:00

the only think i can think about right now is leaving.
i can't imagine myself leaving my family and friends right here in singapore while i go somewhere foreign.
it'll be scary, no doubt, and it's also going to be pretty amazing.
being someone whose really into cultures, i should really appreciate going to somewhere foreign.
but the thought of leaving them, just scares the shit outta me.
i know i'll get through it eventually but i think if i left, it'll be better for me.
that's for sure.

don't worry guys, i'm not leaving. just speaking my mind a little too loudly. HAHA.

2009-11-01T15:15:00.000+08:00

I need to be back in school. Pronto.

2009-10-30T17:03:00.004+08:00

no matter how rocky the path is for you, you've got to work hard to get through it.
without any effort, you wouldn't get anything in return.
but when you finally fall on that rocky path, bring yourself up no matter how difficult it is.

it is easier said than done.
how i wish i was invincible right now and the only thing i want to do is to sleep until someone else realises that i've been sleeping for way too long.

i don't want to seek attention but a second of attention given to me would be nice, wouldn't it?

2009-10-29T01:45:00.002+08:00

after 2 long years, i am finally gonna head back to the place where i only leave precious memories behind.
i'll finally head back to malacca for the raya festivities coming november.
i'm pretty excited as it has been awhile and i bet raya-ing there is gonna be awesome.

i'm gonna drag my cousin and uncle to get firecrackers and whatever pyro that can be found at that illegal pyrotechnic store. haha.
we shall light up the whole kampung with pyro and get crazy until the next morning.
but then again, this year, we'll be taking the coach there. i want to follow the rest of the family and take the coach, but dad decided to rent out a car. i can't complain, so what the heck.
on the car, i shall be. :( sadded much.
but to me, all that is gonna matter, is that the family is finally back together and to the place where everyone's just carefree and have nothing to worry about.
god, i love that place. i just can't wait.

and i wanna know my exam schedule now. i need to book tickets for Phuket. heh. :)

2009-10-25T20:36:00.002+08:00

this weekend is all about realisation.
i thought everything through today random, and i have come to a conclusion.
most of my friend's boyfriends' will never approach me if and when they need to talk about their relationships or something along that line.
one reason is that, i am so protective of my friends' that i may end up snapping at them instead.
therefore, it makes me look and sound like their over-protective father.
because of the principles i have in life, i am even strict with my friends.
in any case if you need confirmation, you can ask my friends.
after this post, it is bound to get them thinking and i am sure they will agree wholeheartedly regarding this matter.

i don't necessarily like this father-figure thingy. makes me feel older than i actually am.
and i have been thinking alot this past few hours.
i want to get married and then leave with my wife and family to a foreign country.
why? cause i don't want my kids to be brainwashed by my friends, telling them stories about how i was so old when i was only 20. i want to save all that embarrasment. HAHAHA. :)

2009-10-24T13:38:00.002+08:00

i don't know what to feel.
i have got a lot of emotions to express, it's just that i don't know how to put them in words.
i'm not sad, just a little bit emotional.

and people, don't get too worked up, it's nothing. trust me.

2009-10-23T19:19:00.002+08:00

first week of school is over and done with. i'm left with 7 more weeks for term one to end.

this is how quick time is flying.
treasure every moment with someone like it's the last time.
no point crying and fighting like there's no end, cause there always is.

my blog posts are getting shorter and much more mysterious. don't cha think so?

2009-10-22T19:21:00.003+08:00

as you grow older, it's amazing thinking and actually realising how fast time flies.
right now, one week back to school is coming to an end, projects are pilling up.
it's scary but hey, i like it fast. :) and it's been a long time since i last saw any of my friends.
i guess this has been the longest i have not met any of them, but i ain't complaining. they all having busy and happening lives. HAH, so if and when you all wanna hang again, just text ok? i'll try my best to make it. just remember to not text me at night unless it's the weekends.
we should really hang and catch up on stuff guys. HEH.

2009-10-18T23:45:00.003+08:00

simpler and cleaner. it's about time i did some change.

2009-10-17T12:26:00.002+08:00

not having any expectations for a movie, makes it much more interesting anticipating the outcome of the movie.
having expectations for the movie and coming out of it disappointed, makes it all sad.
singaporean telemovies are like this. you do not have expectations for them and you anticipate whether it is good or bad.
for the year 2009, i think mediacorp has done a great job in directing and producing these telemovies. so much meaning and love spread in a and a half hours, including the great actors and they proper english pronunciation.

"Angel" by far, has reached out to me so deep and thinking about it makes me smile.

"Life is a like a dice, no matter how you roll it, you have to face every obstacle life has shown you. Don't give up."

2009-10-16T14:18:00.001+08:00

sitting around an office with practically no work to be done.
with 4 other guys who are totally lost in their cyber world.
thank god, today's the final day at work. cause i'm so done with this internship.

and i can't wait to get you baby. you'll be mine soon. :)

2009-10-15T20:30:00.003+08:00

it's been awhile since i've updated.
days have been filled with so much work, especially during attachment.
formula one is now the past and i'm here looking forward to my new semester.
i hope to get the new semester over and done with so that i can finally take a short breather before my year 3.

work has been okay with lotsa things to do until much recently. other than that, i have no other complains about work.
i've been leaving my cyworld updates aside for quite awhile with the exception of fb.
i have been thinking about deleting my twitter and blog, but i guess keeping it alive won't hurt.
nothing interesting else to update about since, i lead a self-proclaimed boring life.
if and when i have something interesting, be sure to check this site out.
cause i'll definitely blog about it. stay ayte? :)

anyways, here's a pic from the raya outing a few days ago.
parfait, very classic albumesque shot. self-timer, btw.

ANYWAYS, HAPPY 14TH YOU IDIOT SISTER! :d

2009-10-04T03:29:00.002+08:00

i had an awesome saturday until now.
i was checking out some vids on the net cause i couldn't sleep and my aunt was visiting.
so after she left, i went on looking for interesting vids.
then my brother got home and me, being ever so nosey, just asked him where did he go.
it was purely random and i must say that i was not even close to being concerned.
he snapped and told me that why the fuck should i bother about his whereabouts?
i thought, after 19 years, i would be used to it. i guess not.
why can't people just answer simple questions properly?
why are all the simple questions replied with many complications.
i need to understand this theory.
someone, please enlighten me.
right now, i just feel like killing my brother. fuck you, seriously.

2009-09-30T15:30:00.003+08:00

comparing to all the previous rayas', this one has been a lot less exciting than the previous years.

i've been slogging my guts at work, i assume it has been the reason why i'm leaving a wee bit tired to even celebrate raya.

nonetheless, the first day was amazing. :)

lots of visiting going on and DC will be making our raya debut on saturday. this year it's going to be just us, so as to not waste any more time. i'm excited for this one and maybe this year, crosses fingers, lalat is going to drive us around.

she says that she will drive only if we trust her.

i say, JUST DRIVE US AROUND. EVEN IF WE DIE, *may god forbid*, WE'LL DIE TOGETHER. means=i''ll die a happy man. :D

hectic schedule for the week. i guess i'll only be back when i have time.

pics for raya are at my fb. go check em' out. maybe i'll just post one.

2009-09-19T16:29:00.003+08:00

this week was awesome. suprises,suprises. what a week to celebrate the big 2-0! i would like to thank each and everyone of you guys for a memorable birthday. of amazing and fruitful memories to take with me to tell my future children and grandchildren about how i have the most amazing people as friends in the world.

till eternity, cause no matter how busy we are or angry at each other, we'll pull through, cause we want to, not because we have you. you guys mean the world to me and knowing i was a significant part of your lives, was the most amazing present you all could have given to me.

peace, love.

2009-09-17T02:56:00.003+08:00

with all this talk, Jaebom come back already.
2pm needs you.
we all need your presence in the group.
and i have officially turned my back on English pop, i am so into kpop right now.
addict baby! LOL.

and my birthday celebration this year, is THE best celebration I've ever had, HANDS DOWN. thanks people.

LOVE YOU, PICS UP SOON ALRIGHT. :)
fyi, i ain't bald. just a better and cleaner cut. and now, i got a twin. face and body different, only hair the same. FIFEET! heh.

2009-09-13T13:52:00.003+08:00

i am officially 20 and 1 day old.
am glad that i'm finally outta my 1's and now into my 2's. HAHA.

the first thing i did when i turned 20? i shaved my head, as you can see above.

the rest of the day, i spent my day at home, resting my tired limbs from all the work i've done during the week.
i'm suppose to get my ass to work today, but i needed more than a day to recuperate, so i decided to stay at home. this year's birthday felt non-existent tho.
i expected it so....heh.
come to think out it, my birthdays have always been like this. so i'm prone to it. HAHA.

this year, i got my birthday texts, 10 minutes earlier. it's unexpected cause i always get mine at 12am on the dot. so this year, it felt special that i was actually significant in someone's life that they actually texted me early. HAHA, you know i know.
anyways, I WANNA THANK EVERYONE WHO WISHED ME DURING MY BIRTHDAY! APPRECIATE IT LOTS! :))

2009-09-11T00:28:00.003+08:00

i think i am taking it too far.
i wanna chill a lil bit and do not make other people's problem, my problem.
they'll work it out, i just have to wait for either good or bad news.

work has been tiring.
i have been assembling tables since day two and i think i am a pro at it.
i think two days is too much time for someone to absorb and actually be a pro at it.
i am proud of myself, and of course my lovely itp mates.
i am a friendly person person by nature, it is just that i need time.
by now, one fact is certain.
pak is my BFF. lol.

i am so happy and relieved that itp has been going amazing.
i am also very happy, cause my raya mood is on the up.
once again, hari raya is going to be amazing.
and my room is orange coated. love the colour. btw, of course i picked the colour.
imagine what my brother would have chosen.

this is such an obvious random post.
i think i am lacking sleep.
i shall go get some rest now. i need it, BAD.

2009-09-10T01:02:00.002+08:00

i have always been a passionate person.
no matter what, whoever i support, everyone knows i give my all.
even though, sometimes it just gets weird and over the top, i shall say that makes me "ME".

i'm devastated that he quit the group.
but i'm hopeful that he comes back.
and those assholes who came up after destroying his career, don't bother asking for forgiveness.
it's too late...

2009-09-06T14:19:00.002+08:00

are my friends all madly in love or what?
i would say it's so cute, cause it's gay.
but honestly, kinda refreshing. they actually look happy.
as long as they're happy, i'm happy.

and i think sharapova and roodick are telepathic.
everytime one of them loses on the same court, the other loses when their match is on next.
that was just so weird.

2009-08-30T22:21:00.003+08:00

I HAVE BEEN ON YOUTUBE FOR THE PAST 72 HOURS.
I HAVE BEEN DOWNLOADING AND LOOKING FOR RANDOM PERFORMANCES.
BUT MOSTLY, I HAVE BEEN DOWNLOADING THE WONDER GIRLS, 2PM AND SNSD.
I HAVE LIKE 100 PLUS PLUS VIDS ON MY REAL PLAYER NOW.
INITIALLY IT WAS JUST TO KEEP THESE VIDS SO THAT WHEN I NET IS DOWN, AT LEAST I HAVE SOME ENTERTAINMENT WHEN I SWITCH THIS LAPTOP ON.
BUT NOW, IT'S BEGINING TO LOOK LIKE I PRACTICALLY DOWNLOADED EVERY PERFORMANCE THEY DID IN 2009.

god, i am so tired.
and i blame one person for this.
my good friend, LIM SHI HONG.

2009-08-26T15:38:00.002+08:00

i want to travel the world. the only way i can do this is become an air stewart.
don't count on me becoming a pilot cause trust me, air crashes gonna be frequent.
after thinking about it, it slowly becomes a good idea.
the only problem now, by the time i try to apply to be one. i'll be 24.

wait a sec, 24 is quite a good number.
the only other problem - i am studying a diploma course which is totally unrelated to this.
pfft. but i think i should go for it? should i or shouldn't i?

i guess i must be really bored. ps: i'm suppose to be studying.

2009-08-24T12:27:00.001+08:00

when you have power and all the right connections, you can practically do anything.
that was what i saw today.
and the result? pure crap.

wanna know what i'm talking about?
did you see HEIDI MONTAG'S performance on Miss Universe 2009?
what was Donald Trump thinking??
dancing was bad, singing was worse and she said it was live.
god, she and her husband really shoved their faces up everyone's asses in order to get to where they wanted. LOL.
that was just plain bad.

the only got that, was that right girl won.

2009-08-22T03:45:00.002+08:00

i guess i ain't gonna do my itp at the end of this semester. kinda bummed out but i'm okay.
i guess saying that i was persistent made them think that i was an ass. haa.
many thoughts running through my head but i think it was for the best.
maybe i'll get something better when the next one comes.
and i'll have to squeeze in phuket before itp. let's hope everything turns out fine. :)
by the way, i wish lulu all the best for his itp with three angle production. HAHA, you'll do fine!

fasting month has started. i dunno how this year is going to be.
and it excites me as usual. i got a lot of spare time in the coming months.
so, i think i wanna ask from school if they have any part time jobs i can do. :)
i shall approach mrs sam. :) heh.

selamat menyambut ramadan everybody! :))

2009-08-19T16:42:00.002+08:00

i can't stand it anymore. i need a break.
i am putting too much pressure on myself to score well for the coming exams.
and i have a test tomorrow which i should probably get back to mugging. :(
i hate the end of semesters. but 3 more semesters to go.
to another phase in my life.

"a guy doesn't understand the meaning of leaving if he has made his mind up. we'll leave when we feel that it's the right time to."

good day people, i know i won't. fuck you, CCS! heh.

2009-08-16T14:18:00.002+08:00

i got so happy that i was done with projects that i slept at 5am on saturday morning. i kinda realised it was bad idea because i was going out on that saturday to meet them peeps. it was a slow day and after 6, most of them started arriving. i must say that we all have grown from what we used to think and joked about. even though, some might have not done so. it was nice meeting all of them, heart-to-heart talks, reminiscing. it was a simple yet memorable meeting.

plans for yesterday was so random and something which i think we have not done alot of. random movie dates are always fun especially when you're in the company of great people. i have never been a fan of horror flicks but orphan totally got me outta my seat. the movie was amazing, except for the fact that esther, the estonian 33 year-old bitch is actually a 9 year-old.
that sentence sounds gibberish but watch the movie, you'll understand what i mean. HAHA.

right now, i'm trying my best to upload all the pics i got. yesterday was not camera glitz day for my cam, so i didn't know i even brought it in the first place. but i'm sure lin has more, so i'll wait for hers to post it up here. to end everything on a good note, i'm glad we did whatever we did yesterday. looking forward for more.

i finally understood the meaning of how a friendship work. it got me thinking when i was with them.

"the number of people didn't matter, as long as YOU try to make it work. everything else will fall in place. everything starts with you. so, don't go around mopping thinking your friends didn't do anything, cause you have to start before they start."

pics will be up sooner or later. good day people!

2009-08-14T19:30:00.002+08:00

finally, a semester outta the way.
i have got to start studying to prepare myself for the exams.
all projects are finally outta the way except for IT, which would be most probably done by monday.
people usually have plans on friday nights, but as usual i don't. the only thing i have is work.
i've been immersing myself with so much work, i barely have a social life.

listening to people talk about love is just cute.
but when there's too much love going around at the same time, it just spells trouble. HAHA.
and oh, ain't it sad when people who look so good together, eventually don't end up together cause they're just plain dumb? this is something i wanna explore. should be an exciting project ;)

2009-08-12T02:02:00.002+08:00

thank god, school is gonna be a short day tmr. so i've decided to miss school.
i have to prep for work which starts at 2.45pm for the lady gaga concert.
i'm excited, no doubt but then again, i don't know the people i'm working with.
opportunity to meet people from my course and actually get to know them. lol.
i'll be your ticketing guy tml, so look out for me yar. haa.

i'm have lots of assignments to finish up before exams and there is one test coming up on monday.
i think i'll not have enough time to study but i'll try to make the best out of the time.
cause i have to get good grades for this semester. i need to achieve the goals i've set from last year. all assignments, i hope will be done by thursday. then i can start study from friday onwards.

sidenote, pool has match on sunday. this is gonna be an exciting week. hope everything i hope for from today goes my way. cause tuesday has not been well-received. and there were alot of bad news. i just feel sad.

2009-08-11T13:11:00.002+08:00

"everything does not go your way everytime, just be glad with the things you have right now."
"everyone makes mistakes, we all are human after all."

my friends have weird ambitions and they need to really shut it.
cause it's driving me nuts. HAHA. who the fuck wants to be a traffic police? LOL.

2009-08-08T16:28:00.002+08:00

"i finally have my net back, it feels awesome.
i've been treating myself to lots of alone time and i can say that now, i feel much more complete than ever. been thinking and sorting out lots of things. so life is feeling really awesome right now."

this month is filled with so many movies and most of it are actually really awesome. but i can't wait for new moon and the next harry potter installment. harry potter will be out next august and so will eclipse. but i just saw 2 new clips from new moon. fuck, it looks amazing. go check it out. seriously, it is AMAZING! :)

haa, this is another one of my random post. life hasn't been mundane. i just don't have anything much to say.

2009-07-28T16:21:00.003+08:00

THE REASON FOR BEING SO BUSY THE LAST WEEK!! :)

CAUSE YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE!

more pictures up at facebook!

2009-07-24T13:24:00.002+08:00

i planned my whole week around liverpool.
the plan was grasped but it was not executed properly.
so, here i am, stuck in class when Agger and Reina is just a few MRT stops away.
yes, i'm fanatical.
i need to get outta here yo.

if this stupid presentation did not have to come up this week, i would now be at JP shouting and screaming for Agger, who by the way, is my favourite defender in Liverpool besides Skrtel that is.

i'm started to ramble nonsense. i need something to stop time or maybe something which can make me be in 2 places at the same time.

ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!! fml.

2009-07-20T10:26:00.002+08:00

at the end of the day, i'm back here.
back at square one.

i hate sitting on the fence.
and i hate to choose when i need to.
cause right now, after saturday is leaving me speechless and shocked.
it felt like i had to accomodate different groups at one time.
and when not everyone is in sync, it just feels weird and awkward, especially for me.
so help cut me some slack.
if you hated it, i'm sorry. i couldn't have done anything.
the best anyone of you could do was just saywhat you wanna do and we could have figured something out.
i really can't do this anymore.
i can't take trying hard to please everyone at the same time, and it hurts so much more, when noone tries to please you as much as i please them.
maybe this is the price i have to pay for keeping patient with my friends and family.
i didn't know it's gonna feel this shitty.

i need to salvage the last few bits i have of my life. i need something, someone.

2009-07-17T18:16:00.003+08:00

i've been contemplating on whether i should keep this alive.
i'm tipping over to just leave it as it as.
but just not update.
cause it keeps all my memories alive.
and blogging just doesn't appeal to me anymore.

i guess this is the end...or not.
we shall see.

2009-07-08T09:23:00.000+08:00

net down. will be back soon. will try to update when i have the time in school.

2009-07-04T11:54:00.002+08:00

my nose is itching like crazy.
plans are finally concrete, as of yesterday.
this is gonna be a stress free week.
so... have a great weekend everybody.

2009-07-02T15:46:00.002+08:00

resting at home. thank god it's just nothing.
and i got lots of assignments to finish and i got one to hand up tml.
another one to finish by sunday afternoon.
section 2 of ccs, i am not sure what to do.
and to top off everything today, i can't find my freaking mc.
i'm doomed.

and because of h1n1, lotsa things going wrong.
i hope to clear all this mess asap. pray for us.
and harry potter unleashes soon. 16th July, come soon.

2009-06-28T16:59:00.003+08:00

it certainly made my day. :)

ps: sorry for the quality.

2009-06-24T23:53:00.002+08:00

from something interesting and ending on quite a sour note, i think today has totally drained my every energy i had left in me.
helping delegates to the shuttle buses was somehow interesting and my auntie got free tickets to transformers premiere but i missed out bya few minutes and hence can't get inside the theatre.
now, i find out that maria is dumped out of wimbledon.
now i left dumbfounded. i don't know who else to support but i just hope it ain't venus or serena. had enough of them and i hope maybe some darkhorse would win the title.
some day this has been. :(

and dude, tonight's news is totally big. suprised, shocked. really, but it's more of the good kind rather than the bad one.

2009-06-23T22:50:00.005+08:00

a blog is meant for someone to post something they feel right?

so being me, hating drama and all that shit.
i have decided to pull the previous post down.
and i am sorry i did not SPECIFICALLY pin point who i am angry at. hence, making it very general.
so i apologise for that.
and don't worry for the rest of you, the only ones i am pissed off at are the ones who have never been close to me in my few years in regent. so fret not.
and so, with this. i hope to end all drama and i sincerely apologise for my previous post.
whether you can accept this or not is up to you.

but you should have known this; i hate when people do not show ANY respect to ANY ONE of my friends.

2009-06-18T16:47:00.002+08:00

with each day, it all feels better.
occupying myself with movies and music.
and kpop is currently loaded in my phone. the ballads sound amazing.
and oh, i can't wait for july.

ps: school is starting in 2 weeks. damn. i need more rehab time. ):

2009-06-14T00:18:00.003+08:00

today was nice. spent it with 3 beautiful people.
would be nice if the other 2 were there. :D
we decided to go for "vocal training" at some cheap and random karaoke joint.
it's called "budget k" but the system is awesome and i think i'll be back there again. and it's cheap also. i like.

spent 3 hours there before we headed to coffee bean at singapore post.
hanged till 9 plus before we cabbed to admiralty. thanks shamir. appreciate it lots.
then mrt-ed to lot and hanged till late. the club plan is already in place. confirmations of prices by monday. so wait for it.

as usual we talked and i'm glad things are okay now. everyone is going through a rough time in their lives. just an obstacle. we'll get through it. and something random just cropped my mind. the only way for farah right now is to talk. but let him talk to you. and we'll give a month. then i shall ask you to go and move on. not worth it babe. :D keep that chin up! and ewin is set to be engaged in 2013. that year is gonna be exciting. i can already see it. haa. and DC, plans for redang is set to be in action for December. GET READY FOR IT!

and i went through the net looking for pics and i just passed through a forum and found pics of the pcd's boyfriends. fucking lucky bastards. below is kenny, joe and kevin. ashley, jessie and kim respectively. damn you guys!

in case ur wondering why would kim date this dude? he was last seen on cheaper by the dozen looking like that. but now he looks like this. lucky kim. wait, lucky him cause he gets KIM. sheesh.

like i said; it's random. love this shot of rachelle lefereve aka victoria from twilight saga. she is damn hot baby. mmm, i like. and that picture of kellan and ashley. what a cute couple. LOL.

before i continue sounding gay-er, i'll end it here.

ps: i don't own the pictures. just sharing it.

ONE MORE TIME, it's the 14th=means HAPPY22ND FIZZY-o! :))))

2009-06-12T17:57:00.002+08:00

there is a difference between airing out dirty laundry and letting out your emotions.
in my case right now, it is definitely the second one.
i'm feeling light-headed and my heart is not in the right place.
my whole family holds a strong exterior but inside most of us are breaking.
especially my dad.
the financial situation is getting from bad to worse and we need help.
too many bills and too expensive standards of living.
why now in this rut? cause everything is lumping onto one another and it's taking it's toll.
i can't live like this anymore.
worrying about the family's situation and analyzing all the potential problems that comes along with it.
i can't do this anymore.

my job is just enough to keep me afloat in school.
no more allowances and i can only depend on that measly pay of mine.
it is the job that best suits me and my schedules. so, i can't afford to lose this job.
and i want to help my parents financially, but i really can't.
i'm feeling very down right now and i dunno what else to do.
what else to say, cause right now. i'm tired.
tired of doing all these.
i really can't take it anymore.

but i would love some help. so i can get a peace of mind. and i can concentrate on studying once again.
and i aim to do one thing: when i'm older/married, i'll make sure i have a financial plan before i jump into anything else. i can't afford to have my family live like this. bad for health and relationships. just do one thing for me; pray for my family to get through this year.

i need some fresh air. i really cannot take it anymore.

2009-06-10T19:37:00.002+08:00

july is set to be exciting.
lots of things happening for me and my friends.
and come july, i bet that whole month is gonna be spending time with my friends.
and we gonna have lotsa fun.
cause we're gonna try to dominate Singapore. lol.
and i have gotta save a lot for that month. damn.
but at the end of the day, it's all gonna be worth it.

harry potter.
virgin club trip.
farah's tp.
my btt. :P
gonna add more to this list. for sure.

2009-06-08T15:06:00.003+08:00

monday has arrived and i didn't feel it coming.
weekends has been a bore and thursday concert is still fresh in my minds.
nicole, melody, ashley and kim totally rocked singapore.
hope they be back here and rock the house with painted windows and top of the world. why?
cause all of them will be seen singing. haa.

anyways, while at the train station waiting for eka, me and farah talked.
and i expressed to her that we should be more supportive with our clan.
which will take a long time to achieve as all of us are in different places in our lives.
but from the bottom of my heart, if and when i am not busy, please text me if you need the support. don't assume i'm always busy.
if i can make it, i will.
this is the first step to being a more supportive friend. :D

2009-06-05T14:38:00.003+08:00

too many words to describe yesterday.
on a side note, tests are over and the holidays are here.
if only i finished my paper on thursday, i would have stayed up all night around Kallang, drunk and high on pcd's doll domination.
yesterday, they were amazing, the crowd was superb and the seats were so exclusive (we got the cheapest ones, felt like the most expensive ones).
decked at the balcony and clad in fuschia with my 3 favorite girls, we danced all night long. and hoped that the night would never end.
pictas for your viewing pleasure, i had my fare share of mine.
drooled upon looking at ashley even though she wasn't on top form. :)

we missed ewin and mel tho. :)

2009-06-04T15:05:00.001+08:00

last paper tmr.
late nights are gonna be over and i have to get rid of these panda eyes.
seriously, makes me look like some drunkard. pfft.

so, can't blog much.
random pics from school will be up and not to forget, the PCD concert.
getting ready now to meet farah and eka.
heh. too bad jessie ain't in singapore, i want my money back or at least gimme a standing ticket. would love to hog at nicole's, wait, i mean ashley's hot bod. :)

2009-06-01T12:49:00.001+08:00

1 paper down. which i might do badly. *crosses fingers*
5 more to go.
4 more days.
this is exciting.
somebody slap me, cause exams and concert are not suppose to be of the same week.
and please make jessica perform on stage, or i'll go berzerk.
hope your back heals babe, cause i'm gonna be there for you. heh.

:)

let's hope i don't do badly for mids. god, bless me please. hah.

2009-05-30T00:33:00.002+08:00

we all know that i am not a fan of unsuccessful planning.
so i am not angry, just disappointed.
but hey, i am not suppose to be angry in this situation cause i don't have the right to.
so, i'll just leave it here. and i hope i won't drag it on along with me.

exams next week, have yet to start revising.
pcd's concert is on next thursday, excited much.
and the only thing i can think about now, is the end of exams.
even before i take my first paper.
but i hope to ace all of this papers, why?
cause i have to. wish me luck people.

and maybe i'm destined to fail in love. i've been developing that mindset for quite a long time. i know, very random. haaa.

night earthlings, i need some sleep.

2009-05-24T16:51:00.004+08:00

cobra starship was the bomb.
but esmee denters outta here was growing on me.
just laid-back funk music. cool shyt.

oh, now i dunno how i'm gonna get through the next 2 weeks.
so many things happening.
and today is the start of the french open.
i'm so dead.
my mid terms are gonna suffer. ;X

2009-05-23T23:44:00.004+08:00

my weekends are short-lived.
i wake up so late that i have half of my saturday gone.
i feel really bad cause i kinda promised that i would be there for ewin at her gallery today.
but because of yesterday's last minute birthday celebration that ended at 5am, i just slept through the day.
i really am sorry ewin, will make it up to you. ;D

some people don't think of what they're saying.
they don't know whether they're hurting the other party.
they just don't think.
then i realised why this happens. they don't think when they saying it.
all because of what else, ego.
people should learn to control their ego cause if they don't, they're not gonna go far in life.

take me as an example.
i've toned down on the excuses and unnecessary fights.
cause it gets tiring, and for this, i'm really proud. :))

btw, go listen to esmee denter's outta here. good music.

2009-05-21T11:28:00.003+08:00

CONGRATULATIONS KRIS ALLEN!
who would have thought kris would win this thing?
i'm glad cause i am a faithful supporter of his music.
very soothing, laid-back artiste.
i'm sure adam lambert fans are going crazy about the results.
prepare for the bitch-assness. kris is bound to be in deep shit.

and i love the art of self-medication. cause it works everytime.
and tmr, is gonna be a huge day. so excited.

AND EWIN, HAPPY GRADUATION! NOW WE GOT A DIPLOMA HOLDER IN THE GROUP BESIDES OUR A-LEVEL STAR, ZEEZEE. :D

2009-05-17T19:48:00.003+08:00

as i go through the set list of pcd's concert.
it occured to me why did i choose to be sucha cheapo.
cause, i didn't have money initially.
so i chose to go on the cheap.
now thinking about it, it would have been better if i went for free standing. cause it will get me closer to the girls.
so, i figured out what i could have done to pay for the tickets. with the help of my cousins of course.
so, i got so happy counting my finances when i realise i that i have other friends who are coming with me.
know them, i'd bet that they for sure would lose 150 bux to come and catch the concert up front.
so i got super excited and wanted to message them, to my horror,
i realised something....

i actually already bought the tickets. damn. what a moodbreaker. i'm such an idiot.

at least i'm going. mell and ewin, videos for you ok? you won't miss out. HAHA.

2009-05-16T22:17:00.003+08:00

hello heartbreak, the season has ended.
let's look forward to more fun and exciting challenges ahead.
let us all now look forward to free weekends and 3 months of unnecessary anticipation.
for now, let's all just congratulate the champions.

come next season, we'll go for it. :)

2009-05-13T13:24:00.005+08:00

my really good friends took my fb quiz.
both farah and eka got 0%.
waiting for mel, aisyah and ewin to take it.
but whatever it is, this is a case of hearing but not listening.
or maybe cause they think i was whining.
no matter what, they should have at least gotten an answer right.
too bad.

i'm depressed. lol.
but one thing that helps to get over this depression, reading twitter blogs of all the famous celebrities. freaking cool.

2009-05-12T18:34:00.002+08:00

the quizzes on fb are so darn addictive.
and with the recent wave of "how well do you know me quizzes", people are treating this as a competition, rather than what it is meant to be.

i have yet to plan out my finance this month as i hope to make it to pcd's concert.
the only way is to go on the cheap and as soon as i get it sorted out, i'll beep you people.

why are lecturers so fucking irritating these days?
no disrespect, but you clearly ain't fit to be one. and this is ultimately for you rajes.
i have no more tolerance level for any of your bullshit. too bad, i have to be at your mercy to get awesome grades. you better not agitate me anymore, cause i'm down to the last level of patience.

i am suppose to work on my assignments. i have yet to start on one. i need time.
someone, get my a time traveller. i need to go back to february. when things were all rosy and fun. help me please.

2009-05-09T18:27:00.003+08:00

you go make your own life decisions.
don't try to become someone your not.
and even if it hurts to see you don't heed advice, at the very least your happy with your decision.
so what more can i say?

we all got choices in life, so don't go around making wrong ones.
but we still got time to ammend it. thank god for us. just need to realise it now.

2009-05-05T13:59:00.003+08:00

i've been feeling down lately. with school.
just do not have the mood to be there.
no mood to study and do tutorials.
i feel down and out. i can't take it anymore.
i just want to get away from it for a while.
and because of all this, i am messing up my grades.
so, i need something/someone to help me.
cause i can't mess up my grades right now, it'll all be a waste.

help. i need ways to calm myself down and not to be too hard on myself. +breathe+

2009-05-03T15:33:00.011+08:00

have that feeling where you wanna blog but then you decide not too cause you're lazy? haa, not that i care people actually read this thing but i dunno...

haa. and whoever can imagine me liking electronic right now.
yes, electronic, space cowboy, lady gaga, they make extremely good weird music.
and oh, i hope to get to phuket. saving up 30 bux per 2 weeks is hard, imagine trying to get there on the cheapo. haa.

and oh, star trek is dropping on may 7. exciting.

anyways, i know what you're going through.
and don't ask me why i never approached you on this.
cause, i'll let you calm yourself down and when you're ready, you'll tell me.
and YES, i know what's going on. and i still love you no matter what zee. :)

2009-04-28T17:20:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 700th POST!

i did not get exempted from two of my modules because, they didn't give me a reason.

but i can't accept this cause i don't wanna waste my time doing modules i've done before this.

but i guess we don't have say much say in this, so i'll let the matter rest.

pr and a/c's, i'm here to stay :(

i do not have anything else to blog about because all i wanted to say is written above. haaa.

but pics from the science centre trip with 04 will be uploaded her and facebook soon.

wait for it. hee. :)

2009-04-26T01:43:00.003+08:00

even before the tickets prices are out, my idiotic brother already has tickets for the liverpool match to be held at the indoor stadium.
i'm so freaking excited, mum's excited too. and not to forget, dad is going nuts.
the cousins are all saving up.
we gonna sit at the "Kop End" and sing our hearts out till we get to freaking tired. :))

my cousin got into an accident yesterday. i was shocked.
and i was on my way home from work.
thank god, he's fine. alhamdulilah. :)
but we will be warded for the next 5 days.
hope everything's gonna be all right. and never do i want to be part of the freaking incident ever.
truthfully, i turned out so calm yesterday.
with the high blood pressure and all, this has got to be an achievement.

abg is, get well soon. we got lots of things to do. we need to finish conquering SEA. heh.
and agger is coming to town, agger is coming to town. woohoo. not forgetting alonso. woo.

2009-04-24T20:25:00.003+08:00

first week of year two is over and done with.
gonna be a long ride in semester one. but i'll make it through, like i always do. ;)

i just wrote a long post. it cannot be posted.
because it's better told in speech.
it may hurt any relationships i have with them, but at least for once, i want to be heard.
yes, i want to be heard.

and they say friends don't judge.
i give you options even though you know my answer. and i give you the liberty to make your own decisions after even consulting me.
all i ask from you is not to judge me. that is all i ask for.

i will say it when i feel the time is suitable for this. when it's not, stop wasting your breath asking me what is all about. when everything's perfect, you'll know.

2009-04-22T13:56:00.002+08:00

so close but yet so far.
it is not the end until you reach the finishing line.
but the excitement is so electrifying that i need distractions.
and all i needed was ms greene on my wallpaper. :)

and i'm closing in on the 700th post.
shall think of keeping it for at least another 200post. heh.

2009-04-20T18:45:00.004+08:00

been awhile i think since i last blogged.
my friends are mostly gonna from the cyber world. either too busy with their lives or school.
i shall just update people who read my blog. haha.

so last saturday, since it was left with only me and my brother at home, the peeps asked me out.
so i got dressed up for bowling with the crazy people, alot of people were missing but i still had fun.
we really need an outing like we used to. :)
and it was nice to meet you anis and fizah.

up next was celebrating somebody's birthday.
so we hung out at settler's cafe. it was so fun i couldn't even remember why i was so excited.
and dc, we should hang there. one day.... :X

here are some random pics from the first day of year two.
nothing special but i think i bonded pretty well today. we seem more united. weird.

and HAPPY 18th Dominic! Legal dude! (above!)

2009-04-17T11:56:00.002+08:00

should stop getting emotional about other people's business.
should stop getting emotional about other people's
should stop getting emotional about other
should stop getting emotional about
should stop getting emotional
should stop getting
should stop
should

reality tv just sucks today.

2009-04-16T13:37:00.002+08:00

i have this obsession whereby i want some people to end up together.
i dunno why but i have a feeling is all because of tv and the fact that they complement each other.
even i know that it may not always happen, but the thought of it, just makes you smile.
haha, i sound like a freak stalker, but whatever.

i didn't expect too much from that talk cause it was always gonna be redundant.
but i did learn something.
i want the best for my friends, that is why i give them options.
my brother and cousins just think it is unnecessary to tell them to not got for it, because deep down they just want to hear the word "go" from their friends.
i get that, i understand that.
why i give options to my friends? easy.
i just want to uphold the friendships i have with this people.
i still think of them as my siblings. and when i reach 26/27 and if they're married with kids and have no time for me and the other peeps, then, we'll talk about that when the time comes.

and for everyone, just remember this one thing: "do you want to be in it for yourself or you want to be in it because of your friends? at the end of the day, it's your decision. you have to live with it." your friends are always gonna be there, but not necessarily agreeing to your every decision.
so to all my friends whom i have stopped from doing the things that you regret not doing, i'm sorry. fret not, i ain't gonna interfere anymore. unless you need a listening ear, that is.

and suhana, i have to be an eljay member to comment, malas nak sign up. but your eljay looks awesome and love the vivitar pics. it's cool. :)

2009-04-15T19:41:00.002+08:00

not everything is going right at the moment, so let's just appreciate the time and embrace whatever is happening, cause life is too short for regrets.

by 2011, i really hope to fly to anfield with those buggers. i need to do something.

2009-04-11T17:24:00.003+08:00

i understand why i am brought together to spend my life with this group of friends.
we are all so similar, yet so different.
we all are dealing with self-image and self-confidence.
this people help me realise that i need to be myself and i need to change my attitutes to approach things.
so, i hope in time to come, i'll do them justice and make them proud.
right now, all i wanna say to them is i miss them and i love them.

cause no matter, how far apart we are right now, you'll always be close to my heart.
and no matter what bad things people say, you know that deep in your heart, you know that it's wrong.

ps:"we love giving advices, but it's time we ,ourselves follow them."

2009-04-09T14:37:00.003+08:00

"for god's sake, stop asking me why liverpool lost.
it is all part and parcel of the game.
we win some, we lose some.
i may be a lil bit shaken up, but hey, it happens once in a while."

i am so freaking tired.
i need some sleep.
life just seems mundane lately.
i need to go do something adventurous.

maybe b&j date alone at dempsey hill may just change my mood.
and matt g. is totally the bomb.

2009-04-05T23:28:00.002+08:00

what's the most perfect way to spend your saturday?
i dunno but whatever i have been doing definitely seems perfect. :)

so on saturday, the girls of o'flava gave us a treat at Pizza Hut.
it was nice of them but it would have been much more interesting if the other girls didn't back out last minute. but Liya, Eefa and Fatin, thank you very much. :) wish you all the best in your future endeavours.

left with farah and nad from vivo as ewin went off for a date with Syahmir.
left for soccer at 5 before leaving with a van full over people just to go catch the ever exciting kuda kepang performance at geylang, marina barrage next, before we embarked to Changi for late night soccer (which POOL WON, btw!) and they decided to disturb a few of the ladyboys there. LOL.

reach home at only 5am. and yes, by the time we reach CCK, everyone was still fresh and we were all singing along to the retro songs from i dunno which era.

i finally understand why i love my family. yes, each and everyone of them. the best part is, both sides are very much close to each other, which makes everything else perfect. :)

below, some pictures we took at the viewing point.
i think the photography module will help alot with me taking better pics.
so the pictures will appear much more artistic on this blog. haha.

PS: YES! WE ARE A CRAZY BUNCH.

2009-04-03T12:46:00.002+08:00

the new timetable just sucked everything out of me.
and it will continue to do that until the end of the sememster.
i have to get to school at 8 every day except for thursday and friday.
and thursday may be an exception as i could still have to be there at 8 if i choose gems on that day.

damn, i hate the new timetable.
at the very least, we got new lecturers. :)
and oh, we got rajes, once again. the horror. haa.

2009-04-02T16:24:00.006+08:00

happy 18th mei ying!

went back to school for fop on tuesday. totally unnecessary but hey, at least i got to meet my friends.

school will only return in 2 weeks time and trust me, school is much better than staying at home.

i hope to get exemptions from modules and it will be best if i got exemption for PR. why?

cause it's 5 credit units. with my grade in ite, i will ace that module without having to take it at all. :))

another rehearsal is going to be on the 090309.

can't wait for that, gonna be interesting.

anyways, bloghopping has never been so interesting.

i went to practically everyone i knew. from regentites to teck whye people to so many others.

everyone from my regent lower sec classmates are growing up gracefully.

they all look gorgeous and i am hoping to meet them again and hang out.

my primary school mates are much different now and it will be exciting to meet all of them again.

i have yet to meet anyone else besides my cousin. so this is set to be exciting also.

09 has been a great start and it is looking very bright for the next couple of months.

holidays, meetups, get togethers and lots of bonding is set to happen for the rest of 09. :)

looking forward to it.

and from today onways, dominic(MB) is set to help me with bulking up. will start soon, i think. heh.

2009-03-31T19:15:00.002+08:00

everything seems to be in place.
the timing is perfect.
now, the only problem, whether time will change any of it.
and as of right now, i am scared it will.
why? cause change is happening all the time.

one dilemma. should i post my facebook badge on my blog? lol.

2009-03-30T17:10:00.006+08:00

timecheck:1710hrs

i just texted farah and she ain't replyin'.
obviously sleeping. pfft. hah.

i just wanted to say, i think we should start dancing again as a group.
cause i just youtube-d Deja La Fame, and....

2009-03-29T17:02:00.001+08:00

the family would never be at home during the weekends.

you can bet on that.

with the probation over and done with, it's time we ride high, ONCE AGAIN.

bring it on baby! :)

ps: will only be back at 4am every weekend. heh.

2009-03-28T13:50:00.002+08:00

some people just don't make sense.
tonight is the earth hour, why not just switch off the lights for an hour to vote for earth against global warming?
will it kill you to switch off the lights?
and they clearly stated it was a vote.
so if you don't wanna do it, nobody is gonna kill you for that.
tell everyone they are such letdowns just because they wanna support this cause is just unnecessary, doncha think so?

people nowdays are just weird.
they claim themselves to be this and that.
they write about other people and the world and act like as if they don't care.
these people really need to see the light which guides them to a place whereby they'll get to see something which just does not concern them alone.

why am i so pissed?
cause one of the most ugliest man or should i say wo-MAN just did a post which i truly felt, unnecessary.
all this is because he thinks he owns the world.
the only reason why people talk about you is that you like to create controversy. and one day, you and your huge-ass sky-high confidence will be brought down to earth and finally see whatever is wrong with your life.
you can bet on that.

i have never felt so irritated by a post before.

to end this on a much happier note,
like what they always do in GG,

XOXO,
ME. :)

2009-03-27T15:49:00.002+08:00

that last post generated so much concern from my friends, it felt weird.
haha. usually, i get too concerned.
thanks ah guys.
love you.
and i will love everyone of your kids equally. haha.

everything feels perfect today.
the sun, the air, the food, the people.
oh, i love waking up to days like this.

the only problem now, is my aching back.
i need a chiropractor and in desperate need of a dentist. free of charge. haa.

come to think of it, i should marry a female dentist. haha. :)

2009-03-25T18:56:00.003+08:00

holidays are meant to be spent, relaxing your minds and stop thinking of critical and crucial stuff.
too bad, humans just cannot run away from this decisions.
noone has an off day cause everyday is filled with decisions.
why can't holidays just be a period of time where people can just put their mind at ease and let things fall into place.

well, i've learnt why this cannot happen.
we are planners but not everything will be done according to the plan.
meticulous or not, everyone is set to meet with setbacks.
so, appreciate this setbacks and move on with life.
this is the only way you can move further and finally to that place.

for me, i've done lots of things that for sure can't be compared to normal teenagers.
i have yet to test the waters.
for someone who wants to try new things, i have yet to try things which are out of my comfort zone.
growing up scared to face the world and vicious lips of people who assume, i have been shut down to not face up with challenges i want to experience.
i've grown to not love myself even when i should.
noone is to blame for all this expect for me.
cause at the end of the day, i didn't want to pursue being myself.
i want to change myself for the sake of the world.
even though i know i should stop, noone will feel what i feel during my last 20 years.
it's difficult to talk about this or open up because in the end, it only makes the heart feel better by at most 20 minutes.
the only way i'll get through this, is when i finally meet you.
and when we live our lives together, facing judgements together.
do everything together.
then on, i shall be more relaxed to opening up on life.

i may make it sound selfish but when you're me, you're finally gonna understand why.
i'm just trying to fight for what i want.

god has plans for everyone, and everyone is set to meet someone.
lots of people say mine is right in front of me.
i believe that for sure, but right now, the feeling's just not there.
and you don't fit that puzzle.
we've gone through alot and i wanna move on with my life, so leaving the thought of you seems like the best idea.
and if we're meant for each other, we'll defintely meet for sure when the time comes.
too bad, timing and everything else is not on my side.
sorry for not being the one to step up cause i know, i am not that person you need right now.
and i know for us being together right now or in the near future, it is not the right thing to do.

this is what i truly feel.
i just hope with this piece, i can finally get a move in with my life.

on a brighter side of things, this dream is totally the cutest scenario.

"earning big bucks with my fiancee and jetting off with ewin's and farah's eldest daugthers to Switzerland. Staying at my private residence in Basel, playing with snowballs at the front door.
looking at the girls and see how similar they are to their mothers. and then spoiling them with toys and chocolates, walking on the street as a foursome family, who don't have anything else on their minds."

i think i'll always remember this dream cause i really hope to achieve it someday.
so when i am earning big bucks, farah and ewin better be married with daughters.
cause i totally wanna live this dream.

for me. finally.

2009-03-22T18:39:00.002+08:00

i will be back with a proper post soon.

i have been busy going out and i am all over the place right now.

let me get back into place and will come up with numerous posts soon than later.

the people who are waiting for pics, wait up ayte? cause i need to collate everything.

thank you very much. :)

2009-03-21T00:34:00.002+08:00

today or technically, yesterday was heated.
trust me, if i didn't have a brain and a heart, you'll probably still not be there.
and girls, good luck tomorrow, you all can do it. :)

and pray for a miracle. and guys, see you tmr. heh.

2009-03-18T01:55:00.004+08:00

why would i bother posting another random one?
cause i just got my results.
happy much but i can't believe the modules i flung.

psychology and audio visuals.
kinda expected tho. hah.

and gossip girl is back. woo.

2009-03-17T12:35:00.002+08:00

alot of things have happened within the space of few days.
i have not been posting regularly as i used to.

as years pass by, things start to change.
change is inevitable. you've got to accept it.

yesterday's attempt to lounge at rainy sentosa definitely didn't work.
cause, we spent most of our time under the shelter than at the beach.
the sun came up at 3, long long hours before we got to swim.
the rain didn't stop me however, cause me and syah got our swim on in the rain.
the rain just soothes the soul.
hung at sentosa till 6/7.
before we took the sky tower at 750pm sharp to see the fireworks at the Songs from the Sea.
we didn't catch the fireworks as the wheel was turning so not giving us a chance to catch the beauty of the fireworks.
the day was just going too long, so we decided to get to vivo to go have dinner.
i talked alot, cause i always do.
and accidently dropped my glass of soya bean and on to ewin's-oh-so-new-and-beloved guess wallet.
i am so sorry ewin, i really feel bad. :( haha.
so got home before 12.
wondering how the rest felt right after they got home.
cause mine was quiet and serene.
it felt great.

the sleep, even was great. :)
cheers to the amazing feeling.

maybe i need to change a few things about myself, cause right now, i ain't happy.
maybe i found my flaws. it all get easier, doesn't it?

2009-03-11T14:24:00.005+08:00

sorry for the late update on day 2 of the KL trip.
been busy with some stuff at home and i do not go online for quite awhile.
but i'm back and ready for more blogging shyt. :)

Day 2 - Sunway Experience
The Sunway Experience was not exactly how I wanted it to be like. But hell, it was no doubt one awesome day.
We got up bright and early to leave for Sunway thinking that it would a one or two journey there by bus.
Look at the face, so cheery and happy, and so roseng. The one below, didn't see the need to go bathe. SO... just look at his face, you can actually see the morning face.

this one, on the other hand, was excited. He dressed for Sunway, the only who actually wore jeans to Sunway. The weather was not meant for jeans, that is for sure. He was steaming his balls on the way to the far far bus stop. Lol.

So back to the story, since 2 of the rest we still getting dressed, me, my brother and husain(above), went for the free breakfast and damn, it was superb. American quality breakfast in Malaysia? very rare. no wonder, we were damn happy at the start of the morning. :)

after breakfast, walked all the way to pudu area to get on the bus. the bus journey wasn't bad at all. and it was cheap. the shocking thing was, sunway was just 30 minutes away. so we woke up early for nothing. feeling like idiots, we roamed the yet-to-be opened Sunway Pyramid. It was only 10am mind you, the shopping mall was obviously closed.
so we just roamed around and the other 2 decided to get breakfast at macs. So off to mac we went.

Below are all random pics at the mall.
And oh, look at the oh-so-yesteryear bus tickets. This one crack me up laughing. So old-school.

after breakfast, we finally set foot inside Sunway Lagoon. These idiots were being asswipes. They were making a fool of themselves and the stupid phrases and signs on the boards around Sunway Lagoon. Before entering Sunway Lagoon, they wanted to take pictures doing raunchy stuff to the poor mascot. This is what they came up with.

Beats me. I was just there for the holiday experience. HAHA.

now tell me, who wouldn't make fun of this? who the hell would swim with a kebaya, sari or jubah? LOL.

the rest above are all pics inside. i chose all the nice ones. too many pictures. the rest are at facebook.

and below is the shot i took at the tiger's den. love the shot, very feeling artistic. haha. lucky shot, i guess.

after the day we had at Sunway Lagoon, we just had to finish up with eating at Carl's Jr. :))

my camera died on me, the day we left for Singapore. The only shot i have from the last day. Sadded much.

Finally, i'm done with the KL post. Next up, we going to Phuket in October. Anyone wanna join? Tell me asap. We asking around for those interested. :)

2009-03-09T00:30:00.005+08:00

P.o.G Alert!

Since it's been awhile since we last saw each other, the plan to meet up during this month is now in full swing. I have planned for something special on the evening of the 14th March 2009. Yes, it is this saturday. I guess most of the guys will not get to see this, so this is only for Aizat, Fizzy and the girls. The guys will be informed on the Saturday itself.

The proposed plan is to go and finally eat at the now halal PASTAMANIA. I know some of you have eaten there before, so maybe it's not the first time for everyone. Back to the topic, we will eat somewhere around the city area, like we always hang at before we make a move around 5-ish to hang and chill at Haji Lane. We'll probably be sheesha-ing there or maybe do something else. Things are available for other proposed plans, so keep them coming.

Meeting Place and time: 3pm, Jurong East (west-siders), 4pm, City Hall (East-Siders).

So, Hit me back with your replies ASAP. Need to know the crowd who is ons for this outing. And Aizat and Fizzy, need help when you meet the guys on Saturday morning for soccer. Ayte? Thanks.

By the way, we originally planned for an overseas outing ever since the past 2 years. So this December may be our chance to fulfill it, so name me the places. Cause I have Tioman, KL, Batam in mind. Hit me back on this too. Thanks.

2009-03-08T12:53:00.002+08:00

i should stop worrying about myself too much.
yes, i should take care of myself.
and i believe in fate.
if really something is to happen to me, then i have to accept it.
but before i find out the truth, i should just leave my life the way i am destined to.
fun and happy.

worrying is the thing that keeps getting me into trouble and whatnots.
i should sign up for yoga classes.
i need to keep my blood pressure down. damn.
i need to get focused on calming myself. hope something works.

2009-03-06T15:01:00.004+08:00

i am seriously bored.
survivor is an hour late today and frankly, friendster sucks now.
pictures load so slow. getting on my nerves.
and by the way, not chosen for hsbc, cause my class has a bad rep.
the lamest reason people can ever give. how does that make us feel? sheesh.

farah just called me, omfg.

2009-03-05T14:46:00.006+08:00

yo.
kl was a blast. :)
even though i've been back for a couple of days now, collating whatever pictures we have is very very tedious.
so here i am, with everything.

we were leaving for kl at 6.40am in the morning and we had to check in 2 hours before.
so after work, we packed our things and started to get ready for our trip.
met at my place before we headed for teck whye mac.
we were so excited that we took so many pics at mac. yes, lots of them.

after supper, we left for my place and waited for my dad.
he sent us to the budget terminal at 3 in the morning.
he offered to send us there, cause he just wanted to add to the excitement.
i know, he also very feeling, like me. like father, like son what.
and by the way, before we boarded the van, we took more pics.
haha.

finally reached the terminal at 4am.

as soon as we arrived, we took more pictures at the budget terminal.
virgin trip there, so...
we were all so geared up that people around that area thought that we were lunatics.
the stares, the laughters from them.
it really made me feel like as if i was in some foreign country. all thanks to my idiotic company.
so we all travelled in pairs except for husain.
his brother got school on friday, so can't tag along. he damn sad.
can see from his picture.
he is the one wearing the fedora.haha. muke paksa.

so after all that enthusiasm and all that "fun", we finally checked-in at 4.30am.
so shocked to see so many people travelling on budget carriers.
and the fact that most of them we pulling LV's and Gucci's. trust me, a sight to behold. haha.

this idiot right here is the oldest one amongst us.
and also the most irritating one of the lot.
there was an officer at the gst refund counter. from the time we arrived at the airport to the time we went through immigration, his face was constant.
mind you, three hours past and he still looked the same.
this idiot tried to imitate him, and omg, the face was totally the same.
you really feel like smacking him.
i couldn't stop laughing when i look at the picture.
priceless, the face. :))

then, inside the boarding area, there was this blocks whereby you can trace out a couple of singapore's attractions. being us, we acted so kiasu and so childish that people couldn't stop laughing.
my brother was so excited for his artpiece, he kept it.
*memories*. LOL.

the randomest thing ever.
husain: "ey this sign like pedophil-ish ah."
me: "why ey?"
husain: "look, guy and girl can do it here." "the disabled can try to do it here." "adults can do kids here too."
me: "WTF??? that is so lame la please."

so i told the others about his lame joke, and guess what. being them, they rolled on the floor laughing and they kept talking about it. it made me dizzy hearing them talk about it. i swear, my cousins get very happy about the slighest things. haha.

then we finally boarded the flight. he damn happy. can see right? haha.

while waiting for takeoff, they created more things.
and this one totally cracked me up.
abg is, the one sitting next to husain, was looking at husain's crotch area.
he then , randomly did something and begged me to snap a picture.
so i did.
wanna know what i snapped? look below.

CAMELTOE!!!! haha.
it was so fucked up. should have been there.
and my brother made a new friend.
freelance photographer who has travelled half of the globe.
may be thinking of bringing us the next time he travels to paris.
fully-paid. heh. the wonders of friendship. :))

we arrived in LCCT an hour later.
and took a bus straight into the city.
damn cheap and damn fast. we camwhored inside the bus. nothing new, i presume.

we reached KL SENTRAL and purchased our train tickets home and also the lrt tickets to get to the hotel.
the tickets were so old-school. i'm reminded of singapore in the 2000's. haha. :P

before we arrived at our hotel, we decided to have breakfast at A&W.
the fries was awesome.
the rootbeer float was awesome.
but now the pancake with chicken. omg, that tasted so bad. we ate halfway.
it just looked appetising. omg. haha.

after checking-in, we straight away left for a haircut.
the aftermath pictures are below.
i love my hair. that picture below is does not make my haircut looked hot. haha.

we then shopped all over kl.
we were all over the place and we got so many things.
and while shopping, we forgot about snapping pics that we only snapped after our shopping escapade.
and that picture ain't amazing cause we were dead tired by then.
and not all of us were in the pic, so the picture ain't nice to look at.
i ignored posting that up cause trust me, you wouldn't wanna see it.

before we finally got some sleep after a long long day, we took pictures of whatever we bought. this was only from day one. not from day two yet. so happy with the purchases, we packed up and then slept like a log till the next day.

stay tuned for part two. sunway post. damn exciting. haha. check regularly ya'll. :))

2009-03-03T16:35:00.002+08:00

before i head straight for the kl trip review, lemme get every detail together before i do that post.
wait for it ayte? :)

no work, no school, endless days are getting to me.
i am getting so restless and i don't know what else to do with my mundane life.
maybe i need to find a better paying job. or maybe i need to do something to myself.
cause i know i need to get my body in shape and also fit, i don't need to be sick at this age.
i need help with my body, i need suggestions on what else to do with my life.
damn, i need another break.
cause that fast-paced, shopping-full trip didn't help much.
i need a break which all i would do is hang around the beach, look hot.
tan until i looked golden, shop when it's time.
i need that kind of break and i dunno who i wanna go with.
and i dont have the money to do it now anyways.
so...yeah.

i need to get direction in my life.
and i need to stick to it.
cause whatever i said i would do, ain't working.
i need the motivation.
and i need the confidence.
wait, i shall start with geting my confidence level up.

"losing my confidence over that matter is stupid, but hey, it had a huge impact.
now, i'm tryna run and forget the past cause it is holding me back."

2009-03-02T11:18:00.008+08:00

first of all, i'm back from kuala lumpur.
and that trip was awesome.

updates on that trip will be soon. :)

but here are some pictures from the marina barrage, taken a week before we left for kuala lumpur.

the family trip has got to be the weirdest and most memorable.

my whole maternal family plus a few from my dad's.

fought with sikhs, slept till late mornings, playing with water, carrying people.

you should have been there, oh well.

and i saw zee and iqbal when we were at KTM. she was on a date with 5 guys. muahaha. :P

2009-02-26T13:16:00.002+08:00

chatted with mell on facebook.
once again, wished him happy 20th.
found out that as usual, i was the first one to wish him. :)

so this year, his birthday is gonna be spent at sentosa when i back, i think.
most probably. turning 20 is a big deal for us and of course, we gotta celebrate.
and mell is gonna beat someone up on his birthday and strip him naked.
yes, he is a replica of the 21st century matreps but he is fine with that tag. lol.
just kidding ah. you can never pass off as a mat. seriously.

so, i have yet to start packing and i am leaving in a few hours.
excited is not even a word in my vocab right now.
cause i feel like fainting , vomitting and whatnots already.
this trip just feels a lil bit different.
hope kl doesnt pour on saturday cause sunway, here we come.

loads of pics, fo' sure.
so wait for me ayte.
and i hope to get myself therapy-ed with all those cheap goodies.
i cheapskate, but i make it look like a million dollars. ha. joking la.

okay, gots to go. adios muchachos/muchachas.

2009-02-25T16:57:00.007+08:00

stop thinking i don't know whatever is going on.
i wasn't born yesterday and i ain't dumb either.

should be packing up real soon for friday's trip.
and plans are once again changed, due to dad's eagerness to send us to the airport.
kinda like this feeling tho, being in charge and everything.
and my words do not fall on deaf ears anymore.
now, i am more substance and not just a poster face. lol. (ps: if any of the dcs' are reading, spare that face. i know ya'll are doing that face. haha.)

i need to think about what to bring and what to buy.
cause after months of not purchasing any apparels, my mind is blank.
and i need to keep myself awake.
but i don't know why.
i clearly ain't making sense no more.
lemme just stop and save you all the time.

adios, amigos/amigas. muy importante things to be done.

mell, fo' sure, tak sempat to blog at 12 exactly.. so HAPPY 20th!

2009-02-24T13:16:00.005+08:00

phew.... :)

2009-02-20T14:25:00.001+08:00

i cannot believe what i just discovered!
rihanna's bruised up face. and it is not pretty.
chris brown should probably just die and kill himself.
and on this, i should say that men should not hit their girls, cause the end result, NOT PRETTAY!

go to justjared.buzznet.com. her picture is gonna scare you. seriously.

2009-02-19T13:40:00.004+08:00

year one is going to be over and done with in a few days.
and i must agree that this is one of the nicest class photos that we have.
and we all really look happy, and none of them are faking smiles. haha.
my last paper is like a few days away and knowing my classmates, they won't be studying. more or less, like me ah. LOL.

so after my PM paper, i'll be rushing home cause i'll be leaving for my long-awaited trip to KL with my cousins. flying over and train-ing back. very exciting. and it's gonna be hell lotsa fun.
fo' sure, anything that happens in KL will stay in KL.

sidetrack a lil bit, even before this KL trip is over, they are already planning a london trip by the end of next year. i have to save hard cause this is one trip i WILL NOT miss. why? cause i am a devotee of liverpool. and i wanna cry bad, cause i don't know how i am gonna save that amount of money. damn. i need a job, and a financial adviser. so i can manage my finances.
i wanna be standing right above the tunnel and shout and scream and cry when i see the players. and i am gonna sing all those faithful anfield songs and whatnots. OMG, please my this dream of mine come through. Anyone interested in following, really text me. cause the more the merrier. As of right now, it's all the guy cousins. ALL 6 of US. text me yar.

credits to: http://www.uefa.com/

2009-02-18T12:56:00.000+08:00

plane tickets booked.
hotel accomdation booked.
all that is left, is time.

this is gonna be so exciting.
no parents, just us.
the five crazy peeps.
this is worth planning for.

2009-02-15T12:27:00.001+08:00

good things happen to people who wait.
can't you just be a lil bit patient. sheesh.

one more paper, this coming tuesday.
another one more the week after. and then....

2009-02-11T13:56:00.003+08:00

ten things i want to do before i leave this earth:

get my family out of this financial rut.
meet that wonderful girl.
get married with the biggest wedding ceremony i can have for my wife. theme has to be fushia pink and red.
travel to france and italy with my wife.
travel to london, dubai, greece and venice with my best friends.
make a fortune in the profession i'm in.
start a huge family.
live in peace and harmony.
get stronger in health and mind.
accomplish the last 9 points as soon as possible.

2009-02-10T17:03:00.003+08:00

i should probably get to studying.
i have 3 more papers to go.
but now, all i can think about is the kl trip.
sheesh.
and also the problem of talking to you.
it kinda rips me up inside to do it, but since i love you too much, i guess i have to eventually do it.

2009-02-05T09:28:00.003+08:00

everyone and every team that i have supported have disappointed me throughout the whole of this week.
it totally gets on my nerve and being the sports fanatic that i am, it juts dampens my mood for school.
like for example today, i zonked out during gems cause liverpool lost to everton in extra time with 2 mins to spare before penalties.
devastating, i know.

then i find out that maria sharapova ain't going to be competing for the next few weeks due to her shoulder injury. out since august of last year, it's been awhile since i saw her on court.
i miss her. boo.

and there are alot more other sports thingys that i wanna blog but it will bore you to death. trust me on this.

i think i wanna get over that loss right now and TRY to concentrate on my upcoming exams.
i think, it's worth my time rather than getting so worked up about sports. LOL.

by the way, i changed my blog name cause it seems tackier now than it did 3 years ago. and yes, i have kept this blog since 2006. and hoping for many more years to come.

ps: so drained. need to get back to life and act like as if nothing happened this morning. cause i need to get through the day. haha.